I consider myself a libertarian (in a sense) but I would say quite simply that the problem with the current government and its ‘policies’ is that it is insane, based upon impossible nonsense and contradictory to reality and civilization. That being said, I do not believe that describing the philosophy and government of the present world as evil means that one signs some sort of suicide pact, martyrdom is idiotic; it only attracts the wrong kind of people.
Taking money from the state is no different than buying subsidized products, it’s simply rational behaviour, even if one holds the opinion that such outcomes as exist derive from insane ideas and barbarianism.
I was just being sarcastic. Using the state’s mail services all your life has already placed you beyond the point of no return regarding the conundrum that’s bothering you. You’ve already made your decision on your question at hand long before you knew you did.