Hi
I was a symphatizer/activist (but not a member) of Lutte Ouvrière, a french leninist-trotskyst party, I called myself a “marxist” and “trotskyst”. I really believed that the future of humanity was communism, the end of private property and the killing of every enemy of the proletariat. 1 month ago I’d have said you were all bourgeois and you should be all put to death during the revolution.
I’ve been in contact with Lutte Ouvrière for about 3 years. It’s a really closed organization, in the pure leninist tradition, you must be a “professional activist” (these are Lenin’s words) to become a member : you must be fully devoted to the revolution. That’s why it takes so long before you become “integrated” into the party.
During those 3 years, I’ve read books that LO’s activists gave me, usually books about revolts/revolutions and then theoretical books about marxism, trotskysm… I’ve gone on “trip” around France to compaign : we have flyers and discussed with people about how bad is capitalism, how richs are too rich, how we should organize to overthrow the bourgeoisie, etc. I also went on training course that were about marxism, the russian revolution, trotskysm, leninism etc.
And then I’ve read some stuff about the labour theory of value during a training course in a text by Lenin. And it seemed weird, well, the LTV always seemed very weird to me, even though my college economists teachers believe in it (they suck), and everybody in LO believe in it. So I read “Value, Price and Profit” by Marx, and it seemed not to be very… coherent and well-thought… “The price of commodities are the quantity of labout embodied in them. Well, ok, demand and supplies can change prices, but that’s not important.” WTF ?
When I came back home, I looked on the web some critics of LTV. I’ve found the book “Karl Marx and the close of his system”. I’ve read some parts of it, like the one that deals with the “tendency of profits to decline”, and I was shocked. Bohem-Bawerk was right, it doesn’t make sense.
So I ordered the book on amazon, I also ordered the book The Economic Theory of the Leisure Class by Bukharin. To keep it short : I’ve been completly convinced by the former, and the latter doesn’t make any f***cking sense.
So I’ve made some research about Bohem-Bawerk and the autrichian school of economics. So I came here. And now I don’t believe anymore that capitalism suck, I rather believe that the problem is the lack of enough capitalism.
(I post this because someone told me it’s always interesting to hear about how people became autrichian :p)