Best efforts? Seriously, this again? I really thought you had grown out of that.
I can understand if you were bullied as a child and thus have this steadfast resolve to show, well, steadfast resolve…this whole idea that “if you think you’re being bullied just stand up to them! Bullies are just softies with no self confidence! They’ll back down!” that you learned in gradeschool may actually work against actual bullies at times. The problem is not everyone who challenges you is a bully. You obviously have a very difficult time accepting this.
You seem to have an ingrained default belief that that’s the case, and that anywhere and everywhere your dignity is being threatened, so you must stand up tall and show how you’re not backing down. These constant declarations of how you’re “not embarrassed” or “won’t be made to feel stupid”…that “I won’t feel shamed. You can’t make me! It’s my choice!” scream your insecurity louder than you do.
It’s more than obvious that you think simply continuing to respond, even when your posts contain nothing more than “nope! Not ashamed!” is somehow a show of willpower, and that you think somehow this will shock your opponent into submission, but what you fail to realize is everyone is not a bully out to get you or make you feel stupid…and your reactions as if they were ironically do more to show your true insecurity than if you didn’t put on this spectacle.
You’re almost 30 years old. Isn’t it about time to grow up?
I honestly don’t even know what that means.